Thursday, July 15, 2010

Thanks for the memories

My head is buzzing this evening, and not from any alcoholic induced state. I just feel as if time has flown by and my head and body are trying to play catch up with each other. This summer, although not too uneventful since I did have a nice little trip to Vegas last week, has really not been that joyful for me and the kids. I did have a great time today over at Melessa's house with our kids and friends, except for my littlest taking a bite out on her littlest. I think that is why I am all spaced. Time flew by so fast. I feel as if the friends I saw today I have known forever and will always know, but I am on the outside looking in. I am in such a daze as to what is really going on in everyone's lives. Being friends, they try to clue me in where they last left off, but I am so busy with my family's personal needs that I do not remember where we were last sometimes. I am not one for chit-chatting on the phone. I would really like to do this and I have tried with friends of mine in the past, but I know that the other party on the line does not enjoy hearing children screaming in the background nor hearing the constant interruptions being made as I try to have a social life on a telephone. I try typing, but generally I am only able to get on right before bed and my thoughts are not always the most coherent at this time. I am very thankful for facebook allowing me the opportunity to have glimpses of my friends in their daily lives, but this is again being on the outside looking in. I enjoy, more than anything, the personal face time I have with my friends. Every time we meet, I know I need more and more of this time. It is never enough for me. Thank you girls for trying to include me in the group, although for many, many years I have just been a bystander.

1 comment:

Christina said...

Don't feel too alone Wendy, I think we all feel that way to a degree. Until I started doing the Rainbow stuff again with Lis, Lanie is the only one I had regular contact with thanks to our dance classes. Even then, we only get to chat for a few minutes after class. I've always kind of felt on the outside and that's why I had to be funny. I always felt like I had very little to contribute other than that.

We do need to be better about getting together though. We always have a good time and then life gets in the way and we don't do it again for months.