My DH

I love my DH. He really does try to do the best that he can. And when he feels guilty for some reason, he REALLY tries to do something extra special for me. Case in point, my DH did not get home until around 9:30pm last night. He was working a side job trying to get money for a bird dog he wants. Since he was gone so long, he came home with a "present" for me. He made an exchange and received 2 tickets to Kayne's Fashion Show on Oct. 24th in Bricktown. For those of you who may think this name is familiar, he is the Oklahoma fashion designer that appeared on Project Runway. He has a store in Norman and designs a LOT of pageant dresses. Jeff remembers me watching him obsessively as he was on the TV show, and he knows that I have even been to his store in Norman to browse.

I would normally be so ecstatic, but after having 3 kids (and 1 of them only 4 months ago), I feel like my nickname - Fat Mamma. I nicknamed myself this. I know I am bigger than I was pre-children. I know that I have not had the time to get back into shape right now either. I know this shouldn't bother me at all - but it does. My self-esteem has now plummeted.

Now I have to figure out what "Business Casual" attire is (for me, that would mean exercise pants and a t-shirt or pj's and a bathrobe at this time), try to find a babysitter for the evening (and cancel taking my kids to the Gymboree Pumpkin Family Party that night), plus try to make myself feel the prettiest that I can that night, all while sitting next to a lady (the one who is getting us into the show and whom my DH knows, I don't) I have never met that is one of Kayne's best friends who is a model herself. Self-esteem knocked down another 10 points.

So if anyone wants to come peruse my closet, or offer me advice on "Business Casual" (I'm a former school teacher and the last 2 years were at an Elementary School - not much to go on people), I am going to call my man, Derek, to get my hair done that day, hopefully get a pedi and mani, and pull out the granny girdle for the night. The next time I talk about this event, I hope to have a picture of me with Kayne!